This is what I feel like at the moment. That I am under construction and that everyone needs to leave me alone until the repairs are done and I am as good as new. I feel like there is no point trying to make new friends or attempt to meet boy friends because I don't have time for them right now and that would be unfair on them. That and who knows where/who I will be at the end of this journey?
I borrowed this image from wenchwisdom.blogspot.com and I feel like it epitimises what I feel like
Does anyone else have problems with how they look like despite losing a weight? Do you think that this is something you will accept with age, or once you reach a particular weight?
I always thought that once I reached "this size", "that weight", had a flat stomach, nice arms etc that I would accept my body and be happy with what I have. Perhaps a tad unrealistic, but if I don't believe in this, then why lose the weight? Being healthy does not motivate me at all, because at the moment there are no side effects or consequences.. yet. Yet when I lost a serious amount of weight before I did not actually feel like I had lost any. This is something I tried to explain to my mum just the other day, that where I was before and where I am now actually doesn't feel any different to me. I know I am bigger, I know I need bigger clothes, but I don't feel any bigger, and I don't feel like I was very much skinnier, despite the numbers saying differently.
It is a hard one and something I feel like I need to address on my journey of weight loss as I feel like if I don't unlock the reasons why? then I will never be able to move on and actually live a happy and healthy life.