So lately I have been taking a step back from eating and weight loss. Mostly because I just can't summon up the energy to deal with it all.
I just want to be relaxed and happy and constantly feeling guilty isn't helping.
I mean do I want to over think everything I eat and worry about every bad thing that I put into my mouth? Or think about the consequences of just enjoying myself? NO.
That's just not realistic, or normal, or healthy. And I don't want that.
I am a long way from where I was. I am fitter and exercise more than I probably ever did and am even looking at increasing that after my holiday over Christmas.
I am eating more vegetables and fruit and cut out so much- lollies, chocolate, chips, sugary drinks, fast food.
That doesn't mean I don't ever eat the above, but compared to having something from all of the above every day, I am eating MAYBE one of the above a couple times a week. (Mostly chocolate. Dam that delicious goodness!)
That's good isn't it? Yet I am constantly thinking about how I shouldn't have had those dip and crackers, or those two pieces of chocolate, or that wine. But I did. So deal with it.
I am sick of second guessing myself and making myself feel even worse about something that to many others is just normal eating habits!
So I am taking a step back and just trying to enjoy myself and not over think it too much. This does not mean I am going to lapse back into old habits and all that ( I don't think I could even if I wanted too!) it just means I have to accept I am not perfect and that I can only improve.
I mean for heaven's sake- I am only 23!
Yes I want to lose weight. But I want to do it long term. I don't want to do something drastic and shock my system and lose a massive amount of weight only to put it all back on again when I resume normal eating habits. How is that healthy? How is that going to help me?
It's not. So this is me taking a step back and a deep breathe and try and look at things from a new perspective.